This is going to get random.

I have the flu so don't expect that I'll be coherent mmkay?

So, I've been doing the shopping because that's what I like to do for my birthday. I got some really FANTAAAAAAAAAASTIC ubergoth stuff. Lots of photos today. None of me.

First up I got (at a spectacular price I might add) from an ebay seller named SpookyKisses, the uber goth Eternal Love Morgaine skirt. SpookyKisses has a pretty good selection of stuff and a few pages of lower end (size wise) plus size items for my fellow darkity dark dark types.



Also on the Ebay I FINALLY found a pair of plain black bootcut pants. I know right? Why was it so hard?



Not a great picture I snagged it from the auction and I'll take a better one when they get here. They are from Torrid of course. Speaking of Torrid I was really disappointed with their big sale yet again. Not one of the items I really wanted was available in my size. Looks like if I'm going to have a few particular pieces it'll have to be full price :(

I also picked up a pixie hem tunic that I can't find a picture of. How much you say? 39.99$ all together. Not bad.

OH I also hit Hot Topic and cruised their sale shoes and picked up the cutest mary janes.



So cute. Yes those are handcuffs. I got those for 10.99. Also I picked up some black with red athletic type stripe tube socks because we all know I am a cute sock whore. And a little black and red eyeshadow/liner pot. Hotness.

I almost bought these:



buuuut yeah. I really have my doubts that they'd fit and that company is so goddamn skeevy I just couldn't do it. So unless I magically absorb the ability to knit (my last attempt to learn how to knit resulted in me throwing needles, yarn, book across the room and bursting into tears) I will go without thigh high socks.

According to a poster from Fatshionista sometime after my unhappy post about thigh high socks, apparently it's not that they don't want to sell to us fat hammed folks but that nobody makes socks with a bigger top circumference of 23". And they have said they are going to have something that stretches to 26 by the fall.

Call me a cynic but I'm not holding my breath.

Or maybe I'm just that cranky. Actually yes I am.

Unfortunately I have no problem with knee socks in general. My calves are a little beefy but not real big. However I do and have always at almost every weight have/had big hams. Even at a size 5 I had some big ole muscly thighs. I've always had issues with things fitting around my ham.

Um what else?

OH I also went ahead and got two little things from Sephora so I could get my free big pimping bubbles too. I got a red lipstick and an empty portable sifter jar for my powder since the fucking BE one was 25$ goddamn dollars. Yeah no not gonna happen.

Also can I just admit right now that I fucking LOVE that Fleetwood Mac song Tusk. No Srsly I do. I can also admit that I went through a phase where I dressed like the bastard child of Stevie Nicks, Cyndi Lauper and probably death. No srsly. I did really and screw you I was hot in my fluttering layers of insanity and gauzy black.

I have to admit I'm having some real serious want to explore my more KinderWhore side. Probably with an infusion of Punk and or Pirate Loli. Yes that means I still have a total girl crush on Kate Bjelland.

Also part of this stems from my t to rock a look where in I look cute, yes loli ahh kawaii etc, but yeah like I'll fucking stab you in the neck. I feel that way most of the time however, expressing it visually is difficult because what always comes to mind is a doll with a butcher knife.

I know I know at least somebody is out there thinking, "Shannon really what the fuck is wrong with you?" I dunno man. I has a vision what can I say.

My head is so full of snot and disgruntlement that I can hardly think. I really should not have come to work today. I have a problem with that. I tend to not really acknowledge how sick I may or may not be. thus winding up sicker than i probably would've been. I will probably stay home tomorrow.

You can see my typing is degenerating.

And um.

Oh YAY Oro, Mr. Oro and the brand new (and still with that shiny baby smell( The Chieftain are well.

For fuck sake man I am running on fumes and rancor right now.

And to close out this is why I love my Cookie. Only she can say things like this to me and make me laugh so hard I fart. Cookie on my fashion sense lately-

What is your problem? Did you fall in some anime geek vortex that sucked out your fashion sense?

with that homo out.

Stumble It!

Bday is arrived.

Thus far birthday is not too bad.

Mainly beacuse Cookie is such a beautiful and wonderful person I am SO thankful to have as a friend. She wrote this thing that blows my mind.

For me.

And um, I am twittering because BoyVenus and GurlVenus have pressies en transit. Which I LOVE.

I am wearing black and red. My eye make up is fabulous even though the black isn't as dark as I'd like it shows more like gunmetal because of my eyeshadow primer.

I got to watch Ugly Bettylast night which is like my favorite fucking show. America is brilliant. That girl could not be ugly is she tried. And I LOVE Mark (Willie's pet fag) so much I want one of my own. Just not so squealy cause yeah, "too gay" (If you don't watch the show you probably don't get the last bit there.)

And Vanessa Williams, such an America's sweetheart type as such an absolute twat I LOVE LOVE LOVE her size 4 ass. She looks fabulous in the role. Although the fluffy hat in the Xmas episode was a little much even for me.

I am listening to NPR and apparently there are 10 tons of dog poop produced in America in a year. Wow.

And a thing in SF where someone is trying to use dog poop as fuel. I'm all about it. Dinosaur remnants won't last for motherfucking ever no matter how many brown people our president deems it necessary to conquer.

Charles Barkley advocates for gay marriage. This is my predjudice showing but I was absolutely shocked. I think mainlyb ecause of the machismo involved in professional sports to have someone who's a legend in the game (basketball in case you don't know) and (it pains me to have to admit this) a Black man out saying:

"I think if they want to get married, God bless them," Barkley said.
"Gay marriage is probably 1 percent of the population, so it's not like it's
going to be an epidemic. Hey, trust me, I'm never going to kiss you and say,
'Chris, you're sexy.'"

That latter is what I believe to be a repsonse to one of the arguments against gay marriage. THere are people who somehow very seriously believe that if you let gays marry, then all of a sudden EVERYONE will become gay and thus want to get married.

Something I don't see a lot in the media coverage on the issue is the parallel between gay marriage and interracial marriage.

People seem to have forgotten that a mere 40 years ago it was illegal for a white person to marry a black person. Loving v. Virginia Back then (and today depending on who you talk to) people said the same things about interracial marriage that people are saying about gay marriage.

"It's an abomination before God."
"It's unnatural."

To quote Leon Bazile:

Almighty God created the races white, black, yellow, Malay and red, and he placed them on separate continents. And but for the interference with his arrangement there would be no cause for such marriages. The fact that he separated the races shows that he did not intend for the races to mix.

Substitute man/woman for race and do you hear anything familiar?

The Supreme Court ruled as follows:

Marriage is one of the "basic civil rights of man," fundamental to our very existence and survival.... To deny this fundamental freedom on so unsupportable a basis as the racial classifications embodied in these statutes, classifications so directly subversive of the principle of equality at the heart of the Fourteenth Amendment, is surely to deprive all the State's citizens of liberty without due process of law. The Fourteenth Amendment requires that the freedom of choice to marry not be restricted by invidious racial discriminations. Under our Constitution, the freedom to marry, or not marry, a person of another race resides with the individual and cannot be infringed by the State.

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What part of that do we not get? As a nation what part of "basic civil rights of man" is confusing? Marriage (though many people would argue this point endlessly)is not just a religious institution. Marriage has practical benefits. Important benefits.

Health Insurance
Taxes
Stability
If one partner has died.

Let's look at the latter. I'm going to put you into a situation.

You reader are let's say 45 years old and have been with the same person for 15 years. For one reason or another you've not had support from, contact with or anything to do with your immediate family in let's say almost 30 years. Sadly you have a heart attack and are incapacitated in the hospital.

Now, because you are with someone to whom you are let's say for all intents and purposes married to. Would you rather a.)have that person have the right to handle your affairs or b.) have your family swoop in to do it?

Would you rather go through this say with or without health insurance?

What if you have children and you pass away? Would you want your children taken away from your spouse and given to veritable strangers because that person is not a biological parent?

Would you want your estate snatched up by people you've had nothing to do with for a majority of your adult life?

What if, this person who is your spouse had to make the decision as to whether to continue life support or not? Would you rather it be the person with whom you've shared hearth and home with or people you've not seen have the right to make this decision?

Now think about this. In general no matter what flavor of religion you follow there are edicts that ask that you not judge your fellow humans. That you love your fellow human being. That you as a devout or not so devout (insert religion here) do not maliciously cause harm to other people.

How harmful is it that because you don't agree with something you are potentially putting futures at risk? Or keeping them from leading the happy life they are striving for? Look at yourself in the mirror, if someone walked up to you, a stranger walked up to you and said, I don't like who you seem to be and therefore you cannot do (insert thing here). How would you feel?

Here in Amerika we as Amerkans do not lack morals. What our country is not lacking is backbone. What we are lacking is empathy. What we are lacking is the balls and heart to look at each other and say, "you're different from me and I think it's weird and scary but, I will stand next to you ad fight until you can live as you like without persecution."

We as Amerikans are lacking conviction. We as Amerikans are lacking in the understanding of the phrase "We The People."

What we are lacking as Amerikans is the strength of our numbers.

What we are lacking in Amerika as Amerikans is heart.

I don't care if you're rich, poor, conservative, liberal, Communist, Socialist, Christian, Jewish, Muslim, Pagan, Wiccan, Black, White, Asian, Immigrant, naturalized, whatever.

I don't care if you live in the ghetto or live in the suburbs.

I don't care if you think none of this has an impact on your life.

I have heard too many people say, "well I'm not gay" or "I don't know any gay peope" that is not the fucking point. The point is that you can substitute gay for woman, or man, or Asian, or White, or Black, or Farmer, the subject can and will be replaced. You too can be demonized to the point where you are afraid to live in some places. To the point you have to drive cross country to do something as simple and wonderful as exchange wedding vows with someone you love.

You could have your children taken away.
You could be denied housing.
You could be denied everything.

Granted it's a stretch but, look around you at what Amerika is right now. Our people are halfway across the world getting killed. Our "leaders" bash and torment other nations and yet in this rich rich land we can't (or won't) educate our children. We can't/won't feed our people. We can't/won't do something to make for a healthy populous.

I say "our children" a lot. I don't have children of my own. And a lot of people I know don't either. But as I keep telling people who complain about school levies and the like, those little bastards you hate so much are going to be wiping your ass when you're old. When we are all gumming our peas they will be running rock.

Do you want politicos who can't pass 6th grade math?

No if you're a rational person you don't want under educated people running this country. So shut it and understand that yes, the state of our children does have an impact on you.

In summation, Amerikans stop fucking around. We need to stop pissing on each others shoes and start living like we're all in this shit together.

Okay I'm done.

My birthday rant.

Homo Out.

Stumble It!

Things that make it better.

I'm kinda stressed out but today while on my way to work I saw lambs in someones backyard. Frolicking muddy little knobby knee'd cuteness of doom lambs.

I laughed outloud on the bus and smooshed my eyes against the window, broke my neck so as not to lose sight of them. Then Dundaaa. Lamby goodness.

I'm also a little depressed today so I am wearing red.

Why am I depressed? It's not the fact that I'm turning 30 I've actually been looking forward to that for five years. No I'm depressed because I've had to cancel the fabulous plans I had due to lack of fundage.

That makes me very sad because what I really wanted to do won't happen again for a year. Let me remind you folks being poor fucking sucks.

What really frustrates me is that I cut out frivolous spending to the point of feeling like an ascetic and I STILL can't fucking afford anything.

I usually don't want other people to give me gifts on my birthday. I really like picking out things myself. So I'm going to wallow in my depression for a bit and show ya'll what I would buy myself for my birthday if I had the fundage.

First:

Magnetic rolelrs 144 pack. No I don't actually need that many I would give half to Cookie but, I would really seriously like to learn to roller set my hair because I think it would be pretty. I just need rollers and to grow some patience to learn how.

Undoing Gender. By Judith Butler.

Basic black pant by Tripp. 12-short.

Black Trip costume corset. Size 0. That is some hot fuckin shit right there.

Black Lurex Keyhole Sweater 2Fer That is hot I've been in love with that since they put it out.

Black ruched 1 shoulder top.

Black Velvet molded cup cami. I have a cotton one of these and just LOVE it. Bastards put it on sale while I'm broke and I know (got told bya buyer) that they are not bringing those back anytime soon.

Demonia Scene-100 Boots I have been lusting after those boots for two goddamn years.

Daisy-13 Black PU Shoes OMFG those are SO cute. New ones. Love them.

Whatever. I'm sure you all get my drift.

So instead I am trying to plan something that is fun, celebratory and very very cheap. Very cheap. if I were smarter I'd just postpone birthday plans to a later date. like next month. I will probably do that.

But it's still sad.

Last year I missed my birthday due to vacation ruining megaflu.

The year before I worked and didn't do anything special.

Godedamn it.

I'm unamused and now I'md one.

Homo Out.

Stumble It!