Okay so my homies SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED.
I hardly even know where to start.
So how about some big deal holy shit writing news?
Through the wonderful turnings of the universe, my dear friend Milcah is going to make my self care book the very first from her new indie press.
That means, there is going to be a website, there are going to be tshirts, there are going to be special edition print books with new stuff and brand new special to this edition content.
Holy. Fucking. Shit.
I have long discarded the idea of mainstream publication a long time ago. Because racism, sexism and everything terrible I just don’t want to deal with it especially in terms of work that is so important to my soul.
And then I met Milcah and I had no idea about her press but I adore her a lot. She is my people.
And now this.
I’m honestly shitting my pants terrified that I will screw it up but I’m also super energized and ready because it feels right and good.
So that happened.
Writing things have been so intense and happening i’m overwhelmed and overjoyed. So for all the news about that, I now have an official author page on facebook and much as I have issues with the facebooks, that looks to be the way to follow my work around. Check it out here.
I realized today that while I have emotionally dealth with that weightloss I had, I haven’t dealt with it in terms of replacing the staple items in my closet like underwear, the tee shirts I love to wear, tank tops. You know the basics.
Now it’s been what like two years? My weight and size has been stable for at least a year so 90% of the raggedy ass clothes I own are too big and raggedy.
Today I was feeling some type of way (my tank top is almost see through in spots, my hoody is sun faded) and while the concept of my outfit is cute as shit, I feel gross.
I did some digging and realized that I’m feeling those awkward poor kid I hate looking poor feelings.
I won’t lie I had a little bit of a mini meltdown about said bad feelings and my finances and everything. So I have been squirreling away money from my freelance projects so I can buy myself clothes that fit and that I like.
Apparently since my weight fluctuated so hard once, I’m kind of afraid to replace things in case shit happens again. It’s not happening but I’m nervous.
Um, I am itchy and sleepy so I am going to cut this short.
Suffice to say, holy shit y’all holy shit holy shit holy shit.
Now that I’m in a bit more of a groove with my other writing stuff and AND OMG I got a new real big girl lap top to work on. I pushed my poor little gifted Chromebook so hard, it was not made for that kind of abuse.
Also good news is that Uniballer can turn my Chromebook into a linuxbook, which means I can tote it around and work without any issues.
So my homies I salute you.
I also want to say that we need a new battle cry, and our battle cry shall be:
DON’T STOP GET IT GET IT!
I’ll explain later.
You, my friend.
Don’t stop, get it get it.